I'll just go straight to my mind stuff. (:

UPDATE//:

Last night, I had a wierd dream. It was a rather happy dream at first but then at the last part.. Amanda popped out of nowhere and she was IN MY ROOM! sitting on MY CHAIR! teaching me how top lay a stupid game with your hands. It was a nightmare so I woke up and couldn't sleep for a while after that.

Sad.. It was a good dream too.. At school :l With the whole gang and we were having recess and laughing and talking and doing other fun stuffz ): Although I don't know why, we were having it with some sec girls. And they were laughing too. In a wierd way that made me laugh a lot. HarHar (: And I was happy.

So.. A few days ago, Shakeera asked Mr David a question that even he couldn't answer properly. He couldn't even understand her much, let alone answer it. But fellow 'pre-teens' understand each other so.. I sort of know the answer.

Well, the question: Why don't humans take in all the nutrients, protein, minerals instead of pooping them out in our 'crap'?

If you see it this way, the answer is quite simple.

God created the world and each an every creature so that they can live with the rest. And God did that by making all creatures depends on each other ( Interdependance ). So like Mr David said, if you cause a species of oraganisms extinct, you can't just sit down and laugh. Something WILL happen. The reason God made our digestive systems give out extra nutrients, minerals and protiens is that we don't need all of it to survive. But the plants do. If we don't give it to the plants, they won't grow well and will eventually die. And we would all die of lack of oxygen.

I tried to make that explanation as simple as possible. So .. Hope you understand it.

I feel like sleeping again. And I want that dream to come back without the last part. ;x But I don't think that'll happen. So far only the bad ones have repeated. Maybe cos I think about them more.. Cos I'm scared of them. That's a logical reason I guess. But now that I'm thinking about this dream more.. Maybe it'll come back (: Hopefully ):

I bought my new camera..... I bought my new camera..... (((:

Its blue...... And slim-ish.. In a way. Seriously you should see it. (: I might bring it to school tomorrow. :D

UPDATE OF MY MIND :

I was wondering on how my life would be in the future. It would probably be as boring or even worse then it is now. For the past 9 1/2 years of my life ( first two years doesn't count coz I don't remember a single thing) , I've been doing the same thing , over and over again. Approximately 494 times.

Mon-Fri : Wake up, go to school, come back, eat, sleep. Sat and Sun : Wake up, follow parents around for errands.

Heh. I did that 494 times. And I would be doing it again for an approximate of 650 times ( If you include six years of University ). The most 'exciting' parts are taking PSLE, O's, A's and Uni Exams. And their not very nice things you'd like to do.

After that, My age would probably be 24 years old. And my new weekly schedule would be like this:

Mon-Fri: Wake up early, Go to work, Come back late, sleep. Sat and Sun: Wake up late, Do errands, extra work, sleep. ( Including meals. )

That would be my schedule if I got a boring job like those in the office. And I'd be doing that fo another approximate of 2132 times if I retire at 65 years old. Or even less if I die earlier then that. But if I got the job I really wanted, like a successful Artist ( Percentage chance is not very high. ) This would be my schedule:

Mon-Sun : Wake up, Paint/Draw/Sketch, Go to auctions or talks to sell my artwork, sleep. ( And I'd be free enough to spend time with friends and family)

I'd be doing that for an approximate of 2392 times if I live til the age of 70.

Sometimes I think I have some kind of syndrome or something. Most of the time I think logically and when I'm socializing, e.g. Bj says ' Kim! What do you think you'd get for PSLE? ' Reply options would pop-up in my head and I'd have to choose which one I'd want to say. E.g. ' I don't care about my PSLE results' or ' 250 Hopefully' or ' How much do you think you'd get? '. I'd calculate which one would be the best choice then I'd say it. I'd gotten so used to doing that, that I would take less than 3 seconds to reply.

Then there are times, that the options that pop-out aren't very good and I don't know what to say. Then I end up saying what's bad or my tongue gets twisted and I end up saying a combination of two or more options cos their all stuck in my head.

And there are other times when I suddenly wonder about the world and I end up irritating my parents cos I asked too many random questions. I can't help it. There are so many things in the world that I don't know and I have a lot of questions from different categories and I can't organize them properly. So whenever I get an answer, another random question from a random category just pops up and makes me even more curious.

Then, I wonder why I'm here and not at the place I really want to be. I just take it as me, being incredibly unlucky. No matter how much I wish, it totally back fires and makes it worse. God just wants me here I guess. No matter how much I beg and plead, He's persistant. :l

This isn't how you think isn't it? I know I'm wierd, but I don't know why and what's wrong with me. There's more parts in mind. But This post is somehow very long. If you made past this, good for you (: If you didn't, I guess I'm sorry in a way.

Its amazing how Oh can describe her feelings so well while I can't. Maybe she reads a lot of those kind of books. :l Ah Wells.

No aikido today (: I actually forgot about it yesterday and then started telling my mom my arm still hurts from the jab. (WhiteLie. It does hurt but only a tiny tiny bit.) Then I found out this morning and all my effort was wasted. Anyways, My mom and grandma went out in the morning to go to the market ( HaHa (: Reminds me of the time LaoShi made us debate on whether supermarkets are better than wet markets (: ) I started humming Dreamin' by OneRepublic really loud. Then I remembered that my tattle-tale aunt was still staying over. And she was 'sleeping' in the next room. My first reaction : ' OH CRAP!' Stupid ol' me. Well she suddenly went somewhere I didn't know ( Probably shopping with my grandma and her sisters ). So she's probably gonna tell them during a break or something.

The MGS website is really useless. I wanted to search on how to be a Student Leader ( I was uber bored ) so I searched 'Student Leaders' at the little blank box on top with the blinking line. ( I like the little blank box with the blinking line (: ) But the first thigns that came out was 'Prefectorial Board'. So I gave up and started blogging (: .

Addictinggames has no more nice games already. And only like 1/10 of the games are actually addicting. They have no more creativity. Or maybe they went on to sell their minigames or something.

I found out my neighbour's ( Rachel (: ) irritating neighbour ( Another Samantha which is a really annoying and always wants to join in with us but we somehow can't fit her in in anyway. ) is moving out by August. heh. Four months from now. You should see how she runs during tennis. UBER WIERD. HaHaHaHa :D

Okay I guess I was a little harsh the last post.

I read Oh's last post and they think it was either Me or Sarah that wrote the hate-you note. I didn't. Yes I do read her blog.. I think their rather funny in a way and I don't hate 6.3. It's not that I hate her or anything. It's just that I'm scared :l I hate sudden changes.. And I never said any of those things that they claim I said. The beggining of the year was okay until she suddenly hated us for a reason I didn't know. ( And I still don't )

Her name is like taboo. I want to talk to her and clear my name. BUT I'm too much of a coward. Maybe I'm becoming like Bj.. Friend paranoid. Although Bj got better and I seemed to get worse. One bad thing, I just go down. I have nothing against them. It doesn't matter if they don't believe me, cos' I don't know how we're gonna go back to be like last time. And you don't know how much I wanted to wish her Happy Birthday. I dared myself about 5 times whenever I got the chance but my stupidity just stopped me.

I'm not that bad a person. At least I think I am. I don't even know my personality and if it was bad, I don't want things to be this bad. I'm too scared that things might go worse if I tried anything to make it better.

I don't know about the rest of the class, but I really don't want a fight. It would just make things worse and that's the last thing I want. Even if there was one, I don't want to have anything to do with it.

It's great that she has new friends and all but I can't help but wonder if she ever thought about last year. It was really fun.

I have temper problems I guess. If I'm mad I just do stupid things like the last post. Bad things spill out. But their meaningless. Like this I guess. They all seem to be the wrong words to describe my apology for whatever I did wrong and didn't know of. Maybe I did do all those all those things but my miniature brain won't let me remember any of it. This is somehow the worst apology and emo-est post I have ever written. I hope Bj doesn't remind me of it anytime on the phone or in school.

This is such a risk to my sanity. Awkward me.

Long awaited post..

Today was Thursday.. So had to do PA for Chapel with Bj. But Bj's dad went to pump petrol so she was late again. Harhar (:

Somebody stupid wrote on 6.3's board that 6.4 hates 6.3 and even signed there 6.4.. What an idiot. Now the whole how 6.3 hates us and.. uh.. Oh hates us even more. Oh well.. What can I do about it? (: And btw. WE AREN'T THAT STUPID , OH. =="

Hmm.. It seems that PullOver Girl changed seats.. Not saying where she's sitting.

Sarah is mad that I wouldn't let her take home The Diary of a Wimpy Kid 2 and I let Bj take it home and i only did it because Bj asked first. So now I think she's really pissed at me.

Next week is gonna be bad I guess... We have our 1.6 km run..Gonna die there probably. But it won't be as bad as last year coz this year my stamina improved by a lot and I don't know how. I can actually run 3 rounds without stopping now :D I want to stop only at the fifth round But I probably won't be able to. Thursday we have Oral.. Sooo probably gonna die there too.. Of rejection by the teachers. Coz all they do there is listen and stare at you as if you're some kind of ghost. And in their hearts their probably laughing coz I stammer too much. I think.

My arm still hurts and it feels as if my tooth got sharper. I mean, it stands out when I open my mouth to laugh. I look like a freakin' vampire. =="

I'M SICK I'M SICK I'M SICK.
Its soooo hard to think... I even had trouble trying to remember my password fro blogger... Watching objects/people move makes me SICK. So I close my eyes.. But the sound seems to get louder even though my ears are partially blocked out by my freakin' allergies. When I lie down on my bed and try to sleep.. Its like I'm on a moving boat and it doesn't stop rocking from side to side.....
I slept 3 times yesterday.. 1 nap after lunch , 1 after tuition (SUFFERED), 1 before dinner.
I didn't even eat much.. I never actually eat breakfast so thats out of the question.. lunch was crappy.. Ate one spoon full and felt like puking.. dinner.. all I had was 3 chicken wings. Heh.
TUITION was CRAP. I couldn't stop blowing my nose and I couldn't read properly. I could tell my teacher was disgusted.. heh.
I might not go to school tomorrow.... Definitely skipping PE.. THANK GOD. I dont think I can go through PE without falling unconsious halfway.
Half of my nose is blocked and everything is tasteless.. EVEN CHOCOLATE. I couldn't even finish doing my compo... Which is due tomorrow .. or the next day.. Coz I might not even go to school tomorrow...

Great.