It felt good to disappear for one whole day. (: Except at one point in the evening, I forgot I was disappearing for a day and replied some messages. Lol

So my brother came home today, with another really nice drawing. It's really good for a 5 year old. Maybe he's slowly turning into a genius who's good at everything. Great. That's exactly what I need. Another smartass in the family. It just feels like I'm going to be overshadowed again. And he's probably going to rub it in my face when he grows older. I am never going to be the best at anything. Yeah, Yeah. You don't need to be the best if you're good at something. Well, that doesn't include me. It doesn't work for me. I still feel like this kid who's trying to make it in life and actually be noticed for what she's best at but is always behind somebody else who's better. I know I should be happy for my brother, but I'm not. I'm barely happy for anyone. Except for maybe one, two people. Because I'm a selfish, spoiled brat. I feel like such a schmuck.

One day, I'm going to get trampled on by millions and gazillions of people who are five hundred and one times better than me in every way possible.